Hit the Ground Crawling by jonny_vrm
SPN, NC-17
After Sam pulls Dean out of Hell, Dean stops talking. It takes a week for Sam to convince Dean to open his mouth so Sam can check that his tongue hasn’t been cut out. It takes two weeks for Sam to accept that Dean really isn’t talking. Then it takes a week of silence, the two of them sitting in the Impala like ventriloquist dummies, sitting in motel rooms like human taxidermy, before Sam decides to start talking for the both of them. Intense and powerful in its progression and development. For all that it is au-ish and different, it has a darkly realistic quality to it that is very atmospheric of the show. Fantastic writing and a gripping plot. I, of course, can't *not* mention the heated burn of hot sex.
~long


Eclipse of the Sun by itsthedetails
SPN, NC-17
Prompt: Anything with Sam and Dean in high school and having to hide their obvious EPIC LOVE. Written for a weecest fic swap. All I can think after reading this is Yessss. It makes me want want want for things that can never be.
~short


When Sammy Refused to Sleep by astatine_burn
SPN, PG-13, Gen
John, Sam and Dean move into their first home after Mary. Sam refuses to sleep and John begins to suspect there's something sinister in the house. Oh wow. Ok, so this is not at all my typical thing, but I really really liked it. There are so many tiny details that just click for me. First, it starts off with saying that John and the boys have been on the road for 2 years trying to out run the thing that is after them. I have to tell you that goes a long way with me understanding John as a parent. I have always had one issue with John - that he chose revenge over his sons. (I love John, I'm not character bashing.) But this really makes since to me. That it might not have started as this burning revenge thing -that might have built slowly as he had to run and hide and protect Sam and Dean. It makes me like him *more* to think of it like this. Also, the idea of little Sam having such a hard time settling down in an actual home for any length of time after spending so much of his short life constantly on the move feels really natural to me. I don't know this author, but I think they did a wonderful job of understanding little children. Anyway, its weeSammy and big brother Dean (a little) and daddy John - there are no overly syrupy cute moments, just a snapshot of what life really might have been like for them.
~shortish


The Principal by Emma15
SPN, PG, Gen
WeeDean and WeeSam are called into the Principal's office. And one ore because I can't get enough of them as little boys. And this is really how I see Dean at this age. He's sweet and polite, but you can already see the cocky confidence layered over his worries and insecurities. And Little Sammy - holding on tight to Big Brother but too smart for his own good so he just *has* to tell it all. And the Principal's reaction is pretty much how every woman reacts, and how can they not with those two boys?

So here is the deal, there was a recent post on spnstoryfinders asking for hurt Dean or something like that. Anyway, the topic interests me and there were a ton of links. I'm going through them. Some are really good. I'm still working through so there may be more to come.


We Belong Together by not_refined
SPN AU, PG-13
Wincest AU. Sam and Dean, growing up and growing closer together in the ordinary world. I'm not sure how I missed posting about this when I read it almost a year ago. But when I stumbled across it again I found it tore me up just as much the second time around. Hauntingly beautiful. Dean being fragile like this makes my heart clinch. I love how wonderful John is to both the boys in this. Anyway, I'm sure most people have read it as not_refined is well known for some really amazing stories. Like the Still Life 'verse. The damage done to Dean only makes him more beautiful. The innocence and struggle of life that make up the fabric of Dean and Sam's life in that story is breathtaking. These two stories just really touch something deep in me.


Nothing Dark by evening_spirit
J2 AU, NC-17
Jared thinks his life sucks (even if he denies feeling bad about). He starts college, which he didn't want and he swears he will not make friends there. But then he meets another student, a boy with emerald eyes, who draws and draws, and draws . . . Jensen is an amazing artist, he's mysteriously shy, and Jared finds himself fascinated to the point of obsession. Can anyone explain to me why stories like this are so immensely intriguing to me? I mean, yes, the writing is good and I like the characters and all that, but why is young, confused Jared and a 'damaged' Jensen so mesmerizing? (And I mean that in terms of 'damaged!Jensen', not as in someone with his disability being damaged, k?) Is it the childlike innocence that somehow can merge and weave seamlessly with mature, adult actions? I honestly don't know why, but stories like this always snag my attention. When they are written well then its a win-win for me - this was, btw, a win-win.


Of Black Dogs and ASL by smokeyhorse
SPN AU, PG, Gen
A miscommunication results in a hurt 10-year-old Dean and a heart-to-heart between Sam and John. AU - deaf!Dean. Schmoop! This is a short little thing, but it is absolutely touching and darling. Little Sam was adorably cute, Dean is more of a concept - and him being deaf is just plain interesting to me, and John is very John, but maybe he'll get a clue in this world. Anyway, I really really wish this were a larger 'verse. The author did the characters great and I love the emotion of the story.


Sleepless Night by prepare4trouble
SPN, PG, Gen
After being injured on a hunt, Dean tries to carry on as normal. Man, I think I might have actually sniffled on the last line. Poor Dean. My only complaint is that it is too short. I just got into it!

Direct Hit by lazy_daze
SPN, NC-17
I've read this before, but its just as hot the second time around. I don't care what canon says - This is Sam and Dean Winchester.


Dessertion by roque_clasique
SPN, Gen, PG
Dean and kids - There's a kid hidden in the Impala! So someone else just posted this as a rec and I can't remember who! But I want to thank them. This is a very sweet little gen Dean fic. The kind that makes your heart ache a little for Dean. The kind that kinda makes you want to hug him a little. The kind that makes you want to shake John and Sam for not realizes what an amazing person they've have their whole lives even when they treat him like dirt. The kind that make you want to read Daddy Dean fics! *sigh* Yeah, its just kinda sweet, ya know?


Happy Little Trees, or, The Bob Ross Fic by berrylicious877
J2 AU, NC-17
Jensen is unemployed and spends his days watching tv. He finds a show called Painting with Jared and becomes obsessed. I'm not sure what is more disturbing - the fact that someone wrote a Bob Ross J2 fic, the fact that someone wrote an NC-17 Bob Ross J2 fic, or the fact that I was strangely fascinated and now really want to hear Jared say 'oh some happy little trees over here' in an insane sort of way... *sigh* Yeah, its schmoopalicous, but as I said - strangely fascinating. LOL

Remember When You Had My Name Scratched On Your Heart by verbalavalanche
SPN AU, Hard R
It goes in this order: Sam, Mom, Dad, God. *deepbreath* Damn, this fucking about killed me. So heartbreaking. Beautiful and poetic, but so very painful and heart wrenching. And what sucks is that you finally figure out that Dean is choosing this path for himself, denying himself his heart. The tiny flashback to little Dean with Mary just about cracked my heart in two.


We Can Make Origami With the Kids For a while by wanttobeatree
J2, PG
In which Chad has kids and they need babysitting. As this author says: Here is a slice of ridiculous schmoopy plotless kidfic. CMM's children may be the most awesome kids ever - adorable little terrors! A fun, cute read. And I adore the massive use of 'boyfriends'. (And LOLOL - the part about united cooties!!!!!!)


Can't (But I Can) and I Hear Your Hand and Too Late by mishaphappens
SPN, PG, Gen (or pre-slash if you want, :D)
Sam has to work harder, harder than everybody else, because they can retain a hundred percent of their surroundings. Sam receives only eighty percent. You’re working with four out of five senses, John always tells him. Four out of five. Those are Sam’s numbers, the definition of his being, the handicap that describes who he is, the only thing he’s ever going to be. Beautiful and very well done story. Somewhat haunting and broken, but yet also not... Just a story about a family and their lives, the good and the bad. I love that Dean and Sam are just as close in this world as in canon - that they 'talk' so much. I love that they fight like any other brothers, but still love with that special Winchester fierceness. The last one makes you hate and pity John at the same time. Yet you know John wouldn't be so fucked up if he didn't love so very intensely. Just like his boys.



All We Ask by theyscreamofyou
SPN AU, R
When you were five, you met your father for the first time. This is not in a style I usually care for. Its stark with almost no dialog. But its very well down - there is a stillness to it, like a lake of deep pain that is so full but still and quiet on the surface. Its sad, but with a hopeful ending. It makes you stop and think and visualize what Dean is perceiving, all the while telling you exactly how it is in a detached sort of feel.



Centuries of Stony Sleep Were Vexed To Nightmare by britomart_is
SPN, NC-17
Morally-ambiguous!Winchesters, apocalypse, consensual sex with severe power imbalance. The Antichrist needs an heir. Ok so this also really isn't my usual style of fic. I am not a big fan of Evil!Sam or Sam as the 'antichrist'. (In fic, lets not talk about the show, k?) And although the sex is technically 'het', it really is Sam/Dean Wincest.
However, I don't want to sound like I didn't like it. britomart_is is a talented writer and made a plot I wouldn't normally care for a good read. Quality writing is kind of awesome like that. And if you do happen to like Evil!Sam then you really will love this.

Wanna feel a bit dirty? Try this:
Blue Light Night by sinoftheday
Dean realizes he can't deny what he really wants anymore. Prompts: Right under Dad's nose or almost caught by Dad. They've fooled around a bit, but it's all still new and experimental. Wee!Sammy & Dean initiates. So underage weecest. Its hot...but dirty because although no exact age is given, you can tell from the description that Sam is young. While I'm sure the author intended a younger age, I felt most comfortable putting him at 13 or so. I swear this fandom and HP totally screw with my head. They pull all these guilty pleasures from me and and just slap them down in the bright sunshine and dare me to *not* like them.
*sigh* I totally blame the authors. Nothing like this should ever be good. wrong wrong wrong Yet, when it comes to Sam&Dean a good writer makes it oh fuck, just right.
*glares at authors!* Don't write so good, will ya'! Let me keep my sanity!

*grin*

EDIT Speaking of dirty hot hot hot
With Bombs and the devil and the kids keep comin' by keepaofthecheez
Turns out, Dean sold his soul long before Wyoming. Warnings: Adult; graphic m/m content, graphic incest, underage--I am not kidding. Includes spanking, frottage, anal play, 69. Haha...um? Yeah, pretty much all I can do is *moan* at this point...

Sever the Bonds by scarlett_wilde
John comes to an unwelcome realization about his sons that spells the start of the end for Sam and Dean. A pre-series, always together, teenchester, John Knows fic. Ohmigawd if that doesn't just send me straight into *flail* from the description alone! And to top it off - its so good. All angsty and painful and damn you John Winchester, it just about broke my heart.


Generosity by astolat
John had traded the gun; he'd have traded away more, and he was still feeling the cold dread of the moment when the demon had cocked its head like a pistol and said, "You know, I'm feeling generous today," because if it hadn't taken more, that was only because it figured what was in store was going to be worse. Yeah, for John it was worse. For me it is heaven! Dean's loyalty to Sam, unwavering and firm, in the face of John's shock and desertion is fucking awesome.

Peachus

Family by gilascave
John knows what his sons do.
Yeah, I just sorta love this stuff. I'm gonna have to make a post with all these collected.


....and even a year later it is still one of my favorite stories.

The Miner's Lamp by hansbekhart
I so wish I could write decent reviews. I really really can't. I just get all twisty in my gut and make high pitched 'mmffgghhh' sounds when a fic is really good. So short of *fangirl squee* I can't really equate that down in words. But then, that isn't why I post this stuff. There are plenty of people out there who can write amazing reviews or catalog things so well you can find anything you want. I only post because I want to share. I guess I feel someone out there might have read the same thing or want to read the same thing and read my post and think 'oh hell yeah'. Also, so the writers know people are reading. That we are there, and loving their work. Anyway, my point is I can't do justice to a lot of the stuff I like to *share* with you about. Like this Sam/Dean fic. It's sorta fractured and broken and beautiful. And, of course, very sexy. The author says: The second time that Sam Winchester falls in love, it’s sudden, abrupt. There are no roses and Sam’s been wearing the same t-shirt for a solid week. He won’t realize what has happened for months


My Heart's Aflame My Body's Strained (but god I like it) by shiplessheathen
pr0n, just pr0n. But really really hot pr0n. With a tongue ring. yumm


The Secret Is Out by titheniel
It's just a ficlet, but it carries a massive punch. Set in season 1, John is just reunited with the boys and without a word said he *knows*. A Wincest ficlet without any actual Wincest. Of course, now I want a birds eye view of the other side of that wall!


I know we've all moved past the 'How Dean Gets Out of Hell' thing, but I still enjoy season 3 fics, so:
I have this dream at night by merihn
not breaking the deal, just twisting it a bit. Followed by 'I love my brother' sex. Very nice. As always, Merihn, writes it all with a longing and grace that I love.


I'm not a big fan of genderfuck stories. I mean, I like *slash* for a reason. So if one of the characters gets slapped into a female body, then it's not really slash anymore. In this fandom, still Wincest sure, but not slash. So usually don't care for genderswap stories, but especially those that don't have the guy(s) changing back at some point so it still is slashy. However, I read As We Are So Wonderfully Done With Each Other by sweetestdrain today and I actually liked it. I actually enjoyed it. I think mostly because it 1. didn't treat the switch with too much comedy, but the right amount of struggle and angst it deserved and 2. because Dean - the non-switched one- had to really come to terms with Sam being a woman. More so even than Sam in some ways. The writer actually did a beautiful job of it. It just goes to show you that even a crack-cliche can be good in the hands of a good writer. Kudos.

And now for something completely different...
All That's Left to Chart by ignited
J2 AU fic. Author says: Jared is a hot shot MTV VJ, easygoing and affable. Jensen is a brilliant science journalist, geeky and introverted. They’re a perfect case of opposites attracting, but when they’re unable to compromise and save their relationship, the natural forces of the universe decide to intervene. They wake up in each other’s bodies in order to get a taste of their very different lives—if they don’t drive each other crazy first. These are the kinds of fics I love to read when I just need a good lift. It's got a plot which is based on the romance between the two boys, but with enough hiccups and bumps along the way to make it plausible. Good sex and bad sex. Awkward bad sex is awesome. With enough snarkiness to be funny, enough insight to be a poignant and drama to twist your guts just a little. And of course enough lurve to make your heart flutter. *sigh* *iz giggling*


9 ficlets from prompts in spn and primeval by merihn as promted by paper_cranes
Once again here is something I am not a big fan of. Drabbles/ficlets. I like things I can sink my teeth into. Things that draw it out. but when something is as hot as the little ficlet at the bottom...whimper Very hot image there.


Oh, It Is Love by fleshflutter
Because fleshflutter always hits it just right. Schmoop, because a girl can't write angsty horror for ever. Also, because when you start to feel that humanity - as a whole - is damn disappointing, schmoop is the best way not to start headdesking. Unbeta'd. Yes, Yes, Yes. It's *adorable* schmoop. I just kinda love Dean. Like a lot.

Okay, so I going to try to actually do something *other* than read SPN fanfic today. We'll see how that goes...

XX,
Peachus

EDIT: Okay, yeah. That didn't work so well. Here are some reads:
The Knuckles of Skinnybone Tree by hansbekhart
John Winchester walks the badlands, lost on the Path of the Dead, when he meets two mysterious men: a pair of hunters chasing the same ghost that he is, who tell him that he's wound up more than twenty years in the future. They promise to get him back to his own time - back to his young children - but refuse to tell him anything about themselves. The three men find themselves entangled with the warring spirits of the land, but John is pursued by nightmares and caught up between the two hunters, who are keeping secrets that John doesn't understand. I'm not giving anything big away when I say the two brothers are Dean and Sam, obviously.
It's long and complex. I don't really understand some of it. But this story is hauntingly beautiful. Full of native american mythology and southwest imagery. Loving, longing and family are twisted and send you on emotional highs. I really enjoyed it. For all that I really only want to read Sam/Dean fics, I very much like it when John is there . He adds a level of emotion to Dean that no other character can pull from him. For all that their live wasn't normal, I think Sam and John had a more 'typical' father/son relationship. But Dean, father, hero, friend, commander and demon all rolled into one. Anyway, the fic was lovely.

Method Acting by parenthetical
Jared doesn't think there's anything wrong about him having a bit of a crush on Dean Winchester. The first reply on the authors comments is this: DUDE. I can't emphasis enough how hot this is. So, so sexy. And how do you manage to do the flail-inducing porn and still have such awesome characterization, OMG? left by zooey_glass04 and it totally the exact thought in my head! Porn, but *awesome* porn. Characterization is PERFECT - and it managed to actually have Dean in a J2 fic without it being *supernatural*. *squee*
~~ more *SQUEE* - I just found out that there are sequels!!

Peachus